Lair of Memories – Archived Post

Sunday, July 20, 2003

*~Surprise!~* I can’t beleive it actually is like almost the end of July, Time went by soooo fast @.@;; it’s mind boggling. My Birthday is in a couple weeks now, and to think, it was just like yesterday when i thought it was about 6 months before my birthday, time goes by so fast when you are enjoying yourself. It’s just like  when you are 6 years old and you think “i can’t wait till i am like 17 years old because i know it’s going to be fun..” but when that time comes, you wish you could turn back and enjoy your childhood a bit more. Find things you weren’t able to find as a child, but i guess thats just the way life is… I’m sure we all have felt this way, it’s just surprising to me that i am another year older and i actually feel different than before, not that i am being treated differently but my personality, myself, me, everything inside of me is telling me that something is different. Not that anyone else would understand what i mean right away, and to tell you the truth it’s pretty hard to explain. Ah, instead of rambling on about all this lets move on to other things… I am actually glad people are recognizing me, Im just so happy to know who cares about me, who would cry if i was in pain, who would smile and be cheerful when i am happy, who would be moved and feel down when i am sad, who will just act crazy when the time is needed for comfort… so many things, qualities, and actions. I just love all my friends for that, even my enemies taught me something (though really i don’t look at anyone as an “enemy” but as a person that is hard to become good friends with) if it wasn’t for them i never would have had the taste of the real world, and i thank them for all they did, even if it was negative, i learned something from it and life lessons are importaint, i love them all too. Even though my family was pretty screwed up and everything that happend in it was pretty bad (not many good things came out of my family) i still thank them for what they did, like i said, life lessons teach us things that get us ready for the “real world”. Hmm, events? well lets see here… there are not many events to speak about, so far the only event i see in the near future is my Birthday, but we all know how thats gonna turn out… right? **thwacks herself** yeah… you are right, i shoulden’t be thinking negatively at a time like this, after all I AM gonna be 16 years old, thats pretty big, nyo? Ok well thats all i have to say for now! Sayonara Minna-San!

Posted 7/20/2003 11:22 PM