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Whispers from the Heart December 11, 2014

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Like the slight breeze before the soon coming storm in the distance… Such as so are the whispers from my heart. Gentle yet Intense over time as the words begin flowing, i just pray they don’t carry you away~

Currently Feeling..:

Content yet Shy

So its almost mid December now and it feels like so many things have happened.
As i am getting random bits of sadness strung across bits of happiness through situations with my friends, i am hoping that things will just start to look more positively from here on out.
The weather has been chilly and thankfully rainy (as we have been needing that so desperately) and i believe its going to continue at least through the rest of this week. It has been so long since i’ve been able to see my backyard almost fully green and lively with all of the wonderful plants i have. All throughout this year it seems like there was only suffering due to the lack of rain and intense heat. I am glad that there’s a bit of revitalization at least.
As this month continues on i proceed to prepare for a few more birthdays of friends coming up :3 It is actually a bit stressful to think about how i am going to go about doing all of this but i’m sure i will manage ^^;

I just anticipate their reactions when i give them gifts that i’ve been trying to plan out since like last month lol. I really hope they enjoy what i’m going to give them as much as i’m giddy just thinking it over.
Feeling like i have been getting closer to all of my friends, even just a little bit, has really made me feel glad. After many years of being sort of isolated from friendships due to problems and trials with other friends, i feel like i’m finally able to get close to people once again. And i am so grateful for it because if there was any time i needed it truly.. i would say now is the time.
My heart is ecstatic over all of this emotional overload and i suppose it makes me look a bit silly. Silly enough that some of my close friends just cant help but want to tease me just to see me flustered. I love them so much but lol it drives me crazy that they want to see me flustered so much. Oh well what can you do, i just enjoy seeing and hearing their smiles when they talk to me. I suppose my embarrassment is worth their happiness in the end. I don’t mind it because in a way, despite my shyness, i like the fact that they are playing around with me. It really made all of our bonds closer.
On the flip side of that note, i suppose with this new found closeness it also is a recipe for me getting hurt a bit easier. Because i think of them all so highly and it is very difficult for me to not take things to heart.. Even the most simplest things that may seem hurtful still get to me. Although i try my hardest to not let it, i suppose i cant help it and it still affects me in some ways. Because of this, there have been big clashes between ideals with me and a few of my best friends.. and because i don’t want conflicts i just try to sit silently. Despite it just being a rant and lashing out without reason, it still ends up hurting me even though i know there isn’t anything i can really do about it. I would rather just endure the moments of chaos than damage any of the bonds i worked so hard to build. I suppose that’s another issue with building bonds like these. They grow to be so strong but at times can be so fragile as well. I suppose its the fragile bits that worry and scare me the most because i don’t want to lose friends again, that is a heartache i have a hard time healing over time. I have lost many friends, some through unfortunate circumstances and others through things that couldn’t be helped. I just want to try my best to not lose anymore.

On another note, it seems as though my activity in Ragnarok might increase more due to all the new updates we’ve been getting @.@ Now i feel like i have to reach the new level cap and obtain the new skills that came out lol. Though i haven’t been talking about it much, alot of things have happened in RO for me this last year. Maybe i’ll do a highlight with pictures sometime soon but i need to search throughout my screenshots and replays before i do that.

Other than that i do have a new camera now, and its pretty nice. Since i was little i always wanted to have one of those Canon cameras like some of my relatives had. I like taking pictures of random things randomly, as well as taking pictures of things that i have made. It wasn’t until now that i actually have a decent high end camera with exchangeable lenses. I am so grateful and blessed to be able to obtain these things, i hope that this new camera of mine will help me capture more memories of things that i cherish. (and be able to look back at those exact moments. )

Here is to hoping that as this year comes to an end like the many years in the past, that more blessings will come all our ways. Thank you everyone, all my friends, all of those whom i cherish and love. Lets make new memories and watch them blossom as we reflect on the memories of the past in reminiscence.

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Trials and Tribulation, Achievements and Reflections September 9, 2011

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When you think things are great, dont get too ahead of yourself because you never know when hell is just around the corner.

Currently Feeling..:

Thinking of the Memories

There is alot i can say about what has happened over the past well several months, but i think i’ll break it down one by one. Lets go back in time a bit..

May 27th, 2011:

From the time period of my wizard hitting 99 it was a matter of about a few days that i decided to trans, then from there about a couple to a few weeks to get job 50 again and hit high wiz.

May 29th, 2011:

when i messed around on my dancer to be, i noticed while i was semi afk this one swordie person was spamming things around me. Emotes and random gibberish, lol you never know what you’ll find really.

June 10th, 2011:

then there was when i was leveling my alchemist, there was this funny instance where i died and my homunculus decided that even in death she would try to heal me up lol. Granted more hp while im dead isnt gonna do much unless im raised but that was pretty funny.

June 15th, 2011:

there was also an anniversary event in which they brought back old morroc and old payon (after the event it was possible to return to the map if you either have VIP status or are carrying the keys that were obtained from the quest)
It brought back some old fond memories ive had with the game, i do remember wandering around old payon back in the day and it was filled with so many people. I really do wish they use that map for something more than just a tourist attraction on the side with nothing developed in it.

July 10th, 2011:

i also managed to finally do the quest for accessing the new world. I have to admit though, that one part looked pretty amazing when you first walk up to it.

July 15th, 2011:


it had been nearly 2 months after transcending and reaching 99. I had been exploring and finishing alot of things that i had not had the chance to do and leveled on the side. (i was also leveling my alt characters to 99 as well so i could get them ready for trans so i suppose that set it back a bit too.)

it took me about 3-4 hours to go through the third job job-change test (it was mostly because of the stupid battle test, since the monsters if you arent careful can pretty much wipe you out in the first 5 seconds you spawn there.)

July 22nd, 2011:

after job-changing my main character, i still was working towards getting my others to 99, my priest was rather close and there was a few times i had some funny conversations. One in particular was with a baby priestess who was actually trying to level in GH with a baby huntress. i managed to capture a snapshot of her that day.

July 27th, 2011:

as it was drawing closer to my birthday, there was a wonderful little surprise in plan. My friends were working together to help me achieve something im pretty sure i wouldnt have done on my own. To get my first god item, Asprika. I dont remember how long we were actually trying to save up but i do know it was at least a good month of farming up the items and finding deals for the god pieces. We had to actually sell some good pieces of gear we had to gather up money faster too but that wasnt so much of a problem since we could pretty much try to get it all back later anyways. The plan was to get the Asprika before my birthday (Which was in the beginning of August) and our goal was achieved really close to it.

July 29th, 2011:

a little bit of time had past but a couple days later it was officially deemed mine to keep.

July 31st, 2011:

By this point i managed to get 2 out of the 3 characters i was working on to level 99 so i was just fooling around and getting everything ready for transing them. As usual i always wandered into amusing things. I wish songs covered this much ground lol its just too bad only bards can do this -sigh-

funny enough, later that day there was an invasion of bosses from bloody branches in south pront. Ah memories of breaking branches in south pront, one of the biggest hang outs that i remember.

August 1st, 2011:

My guildies and friends always had funny ways of amusing me, like Levolt here.

Midway of august i finally decided to trans my alchemist (i didnt get any pictures of that though aside from my skill/stat reference ones) and we also started random boss hunting.
We didnt get anything good though, as expected, but it was fun none the less.

August 17th, 2011:

Then my memories start clouding up in tears as i managed to get this perfect picture of me and Rai. i suppose its a bit emotional for me because it was one of the times i managed to get a good picture without random things clouding up the screen. Sadly it was the only one i was able to get when things were kind of calmed down. This was all nearing the end of the month of august.

A little over a week of that last memory i had also job-changed my priest. (again no picture aside from skill/stat reference)

And after that, things got darkened.. Because i had gotten banned. It turns out that when i was trading with someone, i apparently came into the possession of “Bad Zeny” and i had worried about what would happen after that. Though i had the opportunity to be unbanned if i abide by a zeny wipe that added up to the amount of what was traded. Luckily for me i didnt spend any of the money yet, and i didnt lose any of my items on my account to add up to it. However the fact the event even happened was sort of a mood killer for me… in more than one way. Because after that, things started falling apart and fast. It seemed like the shock of getting banned affected my friends as well (especially because it wasnt just me that got banned too, another friend got banned on his inherited account and another on his main account.) It almost felt like it was an infection spreading fast. As far as i knew alot of people actually got banned around that time. Luckily though, we were able to obtain our accounts back and we hoped we wouldnt get caught in a messy situation like that again.

September 8th, 2011:

The last screen shot i have is one of most of us sitting in my beloved Afk spot, no its more than that now, my guild spot.

It had been a very entertaining and devastating ride at that, with good and bad memories. From here on we didnt give up but we felt it was time to take a break again. I still pop in every once in a while for an event or two but it seems as though my returning ended just as it started. Me and one or two other friends just checking in to see whats new and possibly doing something more. Sometimes i wonder if it was for the best or if it was for the worst. I’ll still play RO even if its by my lonesome or with one other friend, its just sad to see how it became what it is now.

Renewal and Rebirth May 2, 2011

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A Continuation of the Past

Currently Feeling..:

Feeling of Success

Well after so long (which was like from 2004 to now lol) i finally was able to do something with my iRO characters. Ever since it got a little difficult paying for the game i had to stop, but since the recent patch that made iRO turn into Free to Play i had gotten curious and decided to look at my old account.

While i was checking back i wandered around to old familiar places and discovered new things

Looking at it reminded me of alot and brought back many memories of the past. I was able to finally do something about my characters and finally managed to get my Main to lvl 99. It was quite a surprise considering i remember how hard it was to level Pre-Renewal, but after Renewal hit it made it a bit easier to get exp where i left off (which was like lvl 85 i believe) Being able to get like 1% and higher per kill was just purely shocking considering before i would be happy to just get 0.1% >>;; But yes i managed to finally hit that first accomplishment and getting max level with my first second job character.

The moment i got the final level

Finally getting to stare at my own aura lol.. Mmm shinyness...

I was also able to job change my Acolyte to a Priestess finally too (i was so close to job changing but it was such a big pain in the rear to just get those last 5 job levels.. that and GH Churchyard was being very unforgiving, however theres no way i would have been able to grind an aco there now lol their levels got ridiculously high >>; )

Sitting down in the Job Changing Room as my last moments of being an Acolyte

And finally becoming a Priestess..

There was many more things that i wanted to do since i had the opportunity to do them, but i suppose that will take time. For now my Wizard will take the journey onward to being Transcendent and then Third Job. Might be a while before i manage to make my Priestess Trans/3rd since i know that will be a pain in the rear for sure lol. The next one i mostlikely will have up for Transcendence will be my Alchemist, but first i want to get her homunculus evolved and max leveled lol (hopefully that wont take too long)

It makes me happy to be able to see all my old characters again, and i hope that i’ll be able to do all the things ive wanted to do with my characters for so long. That 4 year break really had alot of changes go along with it, it actually challenged me but my veteran RO days proved to be worth something since ive still got it lol  ^-‘ v

Well then, until my next update the journey will go on.. ♥ you all

Changes- The Proving point of Endurance May 1, 2011

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A little bit of disappointment makes the world go round, A little bit of Excitement makes the world a happy place.

Currently Feeling..:

a little frustrated and happy

So then after all the things that had been anticipated on Trickster Online there had been some disappointment and misunderstandings. However, along with that there also had been astonishment and enjoyment. One of the patches i had been dreading was the Refinement Update, since i wasn’t exactly sure on how it was going to work.. Some say equipment will get downgraded from their current refinements, others say some will get buffed and be better than they ever could have been. I think i finally understand what it meant now and its not really what people expected I’m sure. (unless they peered into the window of kTO though of course) Well fearing the worst i logged in, checked all my gears and at first i felt relieved because i Thought they weren’t affected by any stat decrease… However i wasn’t looking at it right and noticed that the weapon i looked at first was actually my main LK weapon.. which had the same stats as my main MA weapon.. >> and the LK weapon had quite a bit less MA on it than its counterpart.

Normally my older staff (the high Luck staff) had like 140-150 MA on it, it jumped up to like 190ish which was around the amount my newer staff (the high MA base one) had. Now when i looked at the other staff i noticed that there was a dramatic change since it basically gained like another 100 MA on it >>; that kinda shocked me and actually made me a bit happy since i was trying to max out refinement on that thing to get about that much MA on it and now that its about the amount i wanted i don’t really need to max refine it now.. (Well i probably still will just because its a kind of achievement but i dont necessarily need to now..)

The results of the Refinement Update on my Older Staff

The results of the Refinement Update on my Newer Staff

Now i was still kind of wondering if my other things were changed too, so i took a look at my alt characters staff that i made to see if it got buffed/nerfed/or remained the same.. and it actually got buffed a bit. I think its base MA used to be like 53?

Results of the Alt Staff

I also checked other weapons, like a sword i refined, it used to have 1k AP and ended up getting 2.2k AP from this update so yeah… At first i thought that sword was going to be kind of outdated and sad because of all the new equipment (mainly boss weapons now) but since this update it made it on par with most decent equips these days and is useful for a lvl 215. I made it mainly for its AC (i compounded AC on it and got it to have around 74 AC i believe?) but now its decent to use as a power weapon ^^;

Aside from the Refinement Update i was hoping to find out who the winners of the Drilling event were (i knew i had to be one of them but i just wanted to know what place i was.. i really wished i was like in the top 3 though :/ ) That announcement ended up being delayed but i eventually found out all the winners.

Spring 2011 Poppuri Top Drillers

Yeah i located where i was on the list, i apparently ended up with 9th place, lol i knew i should have strived for that 60k boxes. Something was telling me i should have xD so close yet so far..

Now there was one thing that bothered me about the patch though.. And that was somehow my char got screwed up -.-; I’m not too sure what happened but apparently i had noticed that my Character didn’t have her wedding title on, so i checked in my MyView window to fix it and apparently it was not there anymore. I also noticed that my Wedding tab in there was missing so i went to check my skill list and saw that my wedding skill was still there. Now see, it was a major glitch since normally if you dissolve marriage in TO it specifically says that your skill will get removed along with all the other things and you get penalized with a 7 day waiting period after that (so you cant get a relationship/married until another week) Well i had all my wedding things available to me before that one patch, it just so happened to disappear (Except the skill) right after the patch. I also checked the NPC that issues you your relationship status and it apparently was going to let me start a new one right away so that made no sense at all, it was an obvious bug. I had sent in a Support 1:1 and got the usual response, i waited for the following patch and it still was not fixed. I sent in another 1:1 and they said they were on it. Finally after the most recent patch it actually got fixed so now i know it was a bug lol >>.. I just don’t like it when my accounts get screwed up for whatever reason (it leads to many unnecessary misunderstandings :/ i was pretty mad after that happened) At least it is fixed now so i don’t need to worry about it again (i hope)

In conclusion, i mean i have had my issues with games here and there (with all the games i played not just one) and i swear i have the most unique problems ever. I had asked others if they had that issue with their MyView and everyone i asked didn’t have it lol i just wonder if anyone else had that issue too that i don’t know about. Oh well..

Gotta admit though, people do love to crowd the GM’s after every patch lol

GM's also seemed to get a little GM AoE buff in this patch too (which was pretty neat lol) +50% of your main stats :x

After all that, i ran off to a place of solitude to escape the lag. And i still love to wait there. (if you look carefully you can see i have the little GM buffs on me too)

I'll be waiting for you here, Always~

Yes, just remember, i shall be waiting for you here.. Always~ ♥

XOXO or -SAD- ? February 12, 2011

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Memories that were built from within and crafted with care, would you not agree its a wonderful thing?

Currently Feeling..:

Shy & Longing

Now don’t get me wrong on how I’m currently feeling right now, i wouldn’t say I’m feeling this way for any specific reasons. More like its the memories that are racing through my mind that make me feel this way.

<Begin Mini Rant: style=”rather confused but frustrated”>

Now the reason why i named this post is simply because its nearing Valentines Day, a holiday that many don’t understand why its quite there (monies hungry, sell hart stoofs omnomnomnomnom..) and some despise and loathe it rather find it a real holiday. Now i can agree on that for the most part as majority of the time its just a waste of money but i mean if you wanna get the point across that you care be it to a family member or a person you adore.. i suppose this holiday sums it up and makes it easier for you to get inspiration (yes even i don’t know why sometimes i used to look forward to this holiday.. maybe its because before, my thoughts raced and sometimes my heart was crying out to feel loved by people but that shouldn’t be much of an excuse to hope for something now is it?)

Well my memories of this holiday really make me think of one other “holiday” in relation, Birthdays. Why? well i only say that because the disappointment i always got from this holiday vaguely replicated the disappointment i got on my birthdays Lol. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not getting all butt hurt about the fact that i got no valentine cards from the heart or anything, nor am i getting all frustrated at the fact that usually people neglected the point that i took birthdays seriously. (I have no idea why i would compare a birthday to valentines day, well actually i do. The point of Valentines Day was to make a person you care about feel special right? Showing them how you feel and so on, well Birthdays are supposed to be kind of the same thing but in my opinion a Birthday holds more value and worthiness for celebration than Valentines day simply because its been turned into a mainstream

“Buy as much as you can for people if you care about them because if you dont then you dont care about them and then they will hate you and you’ll be sad and sorry because you’ll regret the fact that you forgot or delibrately didnt do anything and then suffer the concequences when all your loved ones hate you for not buying anything. . . {Like spending time with them and actually Showing you appreciate them doesnt matter.} So dont let that happen to you lest you be a poor poor soul destined for despair blah blah blah..”

Kind of day. . and despite my humorous attempts to describe it lol… many people might agree that its pretty much what this day has become :/

Anyways i think i got a bit of a rant out of the way regarding how ridiculous holidays are being destroyed by greedy tards. (I mean seriously, Wth is up with selling Halloween stuff in September when summer just barely turns to fall lol, then Christmas stuff all of a sudden pops up out of nowhere before thanksgiving is even over Lol…. then once Christmas is over, for some reason Valentines day stuff started appearing in the beginning of January @.@ i mean its not even freaking close to the holiday :/ i could understand the Christmas stuff being a bit early but i mean seriously there was no problem before when i was little where they would sell the stuff simply after the current holiday in season has passed. I am now surprised i have not seen Easter stuff in the stores yet considering how they get you to try and buy stuff ahead of time like its really gonna make a difference. Oh well I’m fed up with it a bit but it makes me laugh a bit inside because of how funny it is to see random holiday stuff being sold in stores promptly after one has just finished or even before one has passed.)

< /End Mini Rant>

Lol ok now that i got that out of my system i can share some funny or cute things related to Valentines day since it is pretty close anyways.

Now one of the first things i can say is i do enjoy Valentines Day events, i don’t know what it is about them but i enjoy them. I mean everyone loves to feel special right? What better way to feel special by participating in such events lol.  Now I’m just joking but seriously i like doing the events in the online games i play (if given the opportunity to of course)

First major thing i loved about the event in Trickster was the fact that its not just stupid skill scrolls this time but the actual skill card itself. That excited me so much that it made me want to horde that skill like mad, which i am.

Skill Description

(Little history here, For the longest time any special event skills we got were consumable item scrolls that looked kinda like this,

IMAGEHERELALALALA

IMAGEHERELALALALA

but every once in a while we would get a skill card that let us Learn the skill and use it to our hearts delight. Scrolls are temp and sad especially if you wanted to spam the fun skill on things :/ anyways that’s kind of the point. No the skill doesn’t give you stats, No it doesn’t attack stuff, No it doesn’t do anything really special. Why like it? Because its pretty and you use those skills to interact with other people lol that’s pretty much about it.)

Skill Effect: Basically sends a heart to target and explodes into many hearts on impact.

And i shall horde that skill like i attempted to horde most of the others if i was given the chance to. The event equipment was cute too, but that skill card was just the icing on the cake right there.

The next thing up was Gaia, now i tend to enjoy their events simply because you cant take them seriously. Now that isn’t a problem because you want to have fun, the events are usually fairly comical and you can pretty much twist them in your favor (however you may like.) Now i thought that one year of sending Valentine Cards was pretty damn funny, if i remember correctly.. each card was sent with a mad lib’s style format. It made you choose random words and put the card together basing it on those words. The other type of event that just always stuck in my mind was the horrible and stupid pick up lines one, i believe it was the kissing event (you send a “kiss” to a user of your choice) Either way, they were all funny.

This year is Valentine Cards again but with a twist, you can be pro or anti so it actually can be customized to your liking, send mean stuff to someone on valentines day lol i dunno but somewhere along that line i find it funny. There was however only one card that stood out to me. And i shall show you what it said.

Now what do you have to say about that lol?

Yeah that was pretty funny, moving on now though.. I did find a few other cute things amongst my searching. Maybe i’ll post those next time when i can find them all again lol. So with that i leave you with this:

9x – 7i < 3(3x-7u)
9x – 7i < 9x – 21u
-9x -9x
-7i < -21u
-7 -7
i < 3u

— Hope ♥